Anger. Wrath. Rage. I've been trying to create an image that exactly matches my feeling, but halfway through every piece, it changes. It never stays anger. In this case, I realize that the anger was built on a foundation of fear and dread.
I think this might be a message to myself. The Rune Sowelu is mirrored in the piece as indication of damage from a negative solar experience. Now that the light of the true sun is arriving the fear of that past damage is rising like a ghost pain, inspiring me to retreat from love and light.
In actuality, the true sun would heal the pain, but the previous negative encounter was so great as to cause a powerful panic driven fear of this type of encounter. So the fear went to ground...underground. From its seed has grown anger, rage, denial, and despair.
My Anger and Rage are defense mechanisms attempting to protect the part of me that was damaged in the previous incident. Being only damage control, they were never meant to last and have begun to break down as the expenditure of energy required to maintain them is becoming greater than the energy needed to heal. The current set of experiences in my life have pushed me further and further out of every comfort zone I have. All my defense mechanisms are eroding and collapsing out of the necessity of energy conservation. All my issues are springing forth anew. All my dead are returning to life.
{Digital images manipulated in Photoshop}
