Showing posts with label 2004. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 2004. Show all posts

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

From the Sketchbook Archives: Hopeless

Another sketch from the Sarcoidosis / Prednisone period.  If I receall correctly, I think this was the last of that set of sketches.  This piece encompassed my feelings at that time.

I was lost in a miasma of grief, fear, sorrow, powerlessness and hopelessness.  My life was irrevocably changed and many avenues of action and choice were forever lost to me.  I am still recovering from the events of this time period.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

From the Sketchbook Archives: Sorrow

Here is another sketch from the period immediately following my sarcoidosis diagnosis and after the four months I took prednisone.

{Graphite and Sharpie}

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

From the Sketchbook Archives: Darkness Unleashed

This piece is from the period of time following my four month use of Prednisone.  It took me years to get over the damage.  This is where the door of darkness opened that eventually became Zombie Bites.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Interior Life From the Archives: Panther Rattler

And now for something completely different...well not really.  The next few drawings were from the same period as my other Interior Life posts from Trail of Bread Crumbs: Sunrise, The Old Blue Man, and The Well.  However, the ones I'm posting here have a definite darker edge.  Welcome to my dark corners.  (Thank you Garth Marenghi!)

When I created this piece and the ones that will follow, I was trying to find some kind of balance between my commercial goals for my art and my emotional needs for my art.   There has always been a therapeutic aspect to my work as well as it being a descriptive litmus for the current state of my life.  Selling that out completely to commercial control seemed ill advised...that and I'm sure I'll never be able to affordable a proper therapist.  So why throw away a perfectly good tool for self analysis and growth?!?  Instead I tried to blend the two by making my emotional works a little more commercially presentable.  I'm not sure it worked all that well in the end as I am currently unemployed, but what do you do?  LOL.  Ah Life!


My idea here was of turning some of my darker feelings into functional illustrations.  This is me on a bad day...a very bad day.  I think this may have been the lurking demon of the steroid, Prednisone.  I took that hateful drug for 4 months and it took me years to recover from its effects.  I would not recommend it to anyone.  It made me psychotic and when I tried to explain it to my doctor he just looked at me and nodded and smiled.  So I did some research and learned what I needed to do to ween myself off it, then went to a nutritional therapist at the suggestion of my friend Su.

Prednisone is the reason I have very little faith in the medical community.  The answer is always - "yeah but you're alive".  QUALITY of life is also extremely important. I wish for anyone who says something like that to be required to take Prednisone until they've eaten their way to 35 pounds heavier in four months, are punching walls at least once a week, are crying themselves to sleep every night, and are laughing and crying at the same time whenever they have ANY kind of emotion...but YEAH...I was alive.
I was just out my F@%&#&^ mind.

(prying his white knuckled hands from the podium, he steps down from the soap box)  Oops...Sorry about that.  Prednisone was a bad experience for me and my doctor was apathetic about its effects on me.  Anyway - how bout that crazy cave creature I drew!

I was worried at first about posting this text because of the intensity of my feelings concerning Prednisone, but I realized that this text matches the drawing quite nicely.  So it stays. 
{Pen & Ink.}


Thursday, February 24, 2005

Caffiend

A design I created for my boyfriend. 

{Pencilled, Inked, Scanned and colored on Photoshop.}

UPDATE 091014:  This piece is now available on a tshirt or other cool paraphernalia at my Neatoshop!  Drop by and check it out!

Inevitable


An attempt at turning a haiku into sequential art. 

{Pencilled, Inked, Grayscale and Text added in Photoshop}

The Space of Me


This image has been with me off and on for awhile in several different forms...sketches, paintings, and here as digital. 

{Photo manipulated in Photoshop.} 

Flare

There is something very appealing to me about Celestial imagery. It makes sense to my brain. 

{Created completely in Photoshop} 

Wheel of Fire

One of my more abstract pieces. 

{Created from several digital files manipulated in Photoshop.}

Jack and His Scythe

Here's an older piece, before I discovered the wonders of Photoshop color. It's still a bit of imagery I am very fond of.

{Pencilled, Inked, Prismacolored, Scanned, then manipulated in Photoshop}
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